I have lived for many years with a high level of clarity on what goals I would like to achieve in my life. However, over the last 3 years I have become more and more relaxed about what I want to achieve and more and more focused on Jesus and what he wants me to do.
I have found that God has used key people and unique circumstances to help me release my grip on those things I once held so dear and close to my heart. The more I lose my life for God’s purposes, the more I seem to find God’s grace at work in my life. Often we hold so tightly onto things in life we deem to be important that we actually don’t realise the damage it’s causing us. Too many of us shape our identities on things (possessions, people, performance, career, image) rather than on our relationship with God.
There is freedom to be found in abandoning one’s self to God. He alone establishes our identity and sense of purpose in life. While he can and does use events, conversations and people to help shape us, the most important shaping comes from an intimate relationship with him.
In this season of self-abandonment I have found myself praying the boldest prayer I have ever prayed, ‘God make me a kite in your hurricane!’
Oh my gosh. I love this prayer. Every time I pray it, something wells up in my spirit and I’m filled with a sense of awe and amazement at the goodness and wonder of almighty God. God responded to me the first time I prayed it with, ‘Be very careful what you pray for, cause you might just get it.’ I don’t think we realise how seriously God takes our prayers. When I pray, ‘God make me a kite in your hurricane’, I’m saying to God,
“My life is yours. I present my body as a living sacrifice on your altar. Do with me and through me what you want. I don’t want to be on the outside looking in, I want to be in the epi-centre of the eye of the storm of what you are doing on planet earth. Blow my life in the direction you want me go. Blow in my life, like a hurricane. Let it be so shockingly obvious to the world, that you and you alone have done what you are doing in my life and ministry. Don’t bless what I’m doing, just connect me to what you’re doing, cause what you are doing is already blessed. I love you and I abandon myself to you. I don’t have an agenda anymore, other than to do what is on your heart and fulfil the purpose for which you created me. In Jesus mighty name, Amen.”
Where are you spiritually at today? Are you holding things so tightly to your heart that you would die, if they were taken from you? Or are you living with a sense of abandonment to God and his purposes in your life? I dare you to pray this audacious prayer, ‘God, make me a kite in your hurricane!’ Truth is, you better hold on cause he might just answer it.